personal reflections on missions
do i have what it takes to do this work? what are all the "qualifications" - academic qualities and personal qualities - needed?
i have read stories about missionaries who did not "succeed" and had to return. some even suffered serious personal and family problems as a result of the "failure".
to study and understand about missions are simple feats. the difficulty will lie when taking the step to embark onto one such journey and stay "alive" in the whole journey. support is needed - financial and physical. for the physical part, it is always recommended for a person not to go alone - for married person, he or she should go with the spouse and children if they have any. for a single person, doing mission work alone is usually not easy. loneliness sets in very fast and there will be problems when the person falls in love while being "on the job" in the mission field.
sigh. it's not that i wish to withdraw from everything but it looks like i might fail in the assessment of being a mission worker. i seem to fall short of all the "qualifications" required. would any church then be willing to support me and send me?
prayer. i will continue to pray for a "door" to be opened - i don't know how, i trust that god will direct me somewhere somehow.
somewhere - maybe as a start where i am. start by reaching out to those i come in contact with everyday - the youths in my place of work? and their families? one by one, slowly but surely.
and regarding other issues in my life - this would be something i have to also ask god to give me wisdom to deal with them.
sigh - no, i am not giving up yet - i will continue my lessons and learn more about missions.
