A call to re-consider
Sometimes our minds play tricks on us and our hearts get so confused by what we see and how we feel.
With regards to missions, when I use my logic to think, I get messages which tell me that perhaps it is not something that I could do. Where I am now - the circumstances that I find myself in - seems to show me that there would be no possibility for me to venture into the missions field. It's becoming quite clear and the more I think, the more I see this going to become a reality.
On the other hand, if I use my heart to sense my inner self, I get another type of feeling. The desire and longing to reach out to the lost and to those who have yet to know the gospel are always inside me.
What is the matter here?
Perhaps there is a different call to me with regards to how I should be involved in missions? Perhaps it is not to go physically but rather to find another way to support the works of missions?
Where I am now, in church, I don't see any doors open to me to get involved. I think my church is quite stagnated in its own "mission". Recently I feel more and more like I am "rotting" away in church. I might have reached a "dead end" in my own spiritual life and I must find the door to get out of my situation before I get "suffocated".
It's really time to re-consider all my options....
Courage & Wisdom
